Day 1: What’s My Why?

Make a List: Why Do I Drink? 

  • I don’t want to miss out on the social experience.
  • Out of habit and/or boredom.
  • To get the feeling that comes after a few sips…”brightness and fun”.

{Why Do I Move Past the First Glass and Keep Going…and Going?}

  • I “think” I’m a better conversationalist and more upbeat.
  • The mood is easy, relaxed, and more animated.  It’s a party.
  • I feel more involved with the others that are drinking….connected through alcohol.

Make a List: Why Do I Want to Drink Less?

  • I want to feel optimal health.
  • I want to sleep the best I can.
  • I want to protect my organs and avoid illness.
  • I don’t want to feel like I’m undoing all the positive efforts for my health.
  • I don’t want to wake up and have regrets and negative self-talk.
  • I don’t want to wonder if I said too much, monopolized the conversation, repeated myself, or have hazy memories.
  • Avoid the day after doom and gloom (the seesaw from Bright and Light Buzz)
  • I don’t want to ever again numb myself to life’s amazing moments.
  • I want to be fully present for every positive and negative life experience.

3 thoughts on “Day 1: What’s My Why?

    1. As I dig deeper into all of this …{again}… and commit to an unfiltered raw honest 30 days with Annie’s exercises… I will admit to myself (and in writing) that I have a physiological reaction to alcohol …that makes it very difficult for me to have a single casual social cocktail. Once I take a sip, I’m all in… there is no moderation… I WANT the buzz. I enjoy the exit from self-control. I lose all inhibitions and want the “ride”. There is no moderation. I have an attitude of “why bother drinking if there is no buzz”.
      If I have a plan to NOT drink a single drop, I am successful. If I “decide” to have just one glass and then shift to water… well that plan goes out the window 9 out of 10 times. I’m beginning to address the fact that the biggest self-defeat is that I have “blown myself off”. I had made an agreement to myself, and then completely disregarded it. I just finished reading “Girl Wash Your Face” by Rachel Hollis. She points out and asks “Would we continue to stay friends with someone who continually broke their promises to us?” No. I am ready to be a friend to myself who Keeps My Commitments to Me.
      (Thank you so very much for commenting and creating a space for me to dig deeper! I’d appreciate more input this month! M)

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      1. The broken promises to myself were crushing my soul. And they scared me.
        If I’m honest I never wanted to stop once I had a drink. I liked the buzz and the mental release too much.
        It’s been a long time since I felt that compulsion. But I still remember…

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